I am officially more than half way done with the 30 for 30 remix and I wanted to take just a brief moment to be serious. I know, after yesterday's post you probably didn't think that was even a word in my vocabulary! Since you have had to put up with day after day of me, me, me in the same old clothes I thought you at least deserved my reasoning behind the madness. Let me be real with you: I took the challenge originally because I was starting to be scared by my shopping habits. Packages were being delivered every week. I was going to the mall sometimes twice a week. Nine times out of 10 when I saw an item I liked on a fashion blogger that was linked, I bought it. Shoes under $100 suddenly had become "a steal." This wasn't who I was before blogging, and I wasn't sure I was comfortable with it having that kind of affect on my life. It wasn't that I was spending more than I afford per say, it was the fact that I was just spending recklessly that bothered me. Shopping had become a race to fulfillment that I was never going to win. I wanted to get back to the point where shopping was a fun activity that I could indulge in every once and a while- I wanted it to be special again. It may seem silly that I needed to participate in a blogosphere event in order to control my own spending, but I needed that accountability. I needed to feel like if I shopped, I'd be disappointing someone. Kendi's hunka hunka list of bloggers who were joining in the fun became a pseudo support system. We had all made a commitment together to stand by the principles behind the exercise that Kendi so lovingly (and in my opinion geniusly) created, and I wanted to do my part to stand behind those principles. Have I come close to cheating? Absolutely. But when I got that credit card out in my hand, ready to do the damage I would see the list and I knew I wanted to keep going. I am proving to myself that being a fashion blogger does not mean giving in to every clothes craving you have and it doesn't mean always having the latest trends. For me, it is about the confidence that I am building each and every time I write to you all or share a photo with you and it is about the creativity that dressing now unleashes in me every day. It is fun and an enjoyable hobby that in six months has garnered me uncountable laughs and smiles and many new friends who are kind enough to share pieces of their world with me. That is what I wanted when I started this blog and the 30 for 30 challenge is helping to return me there.
Whew, thanks for letting me spew all that out here dolls. I hope I didn't get too serious for you and scare you away. On a lighter note, let's turn to the clothes :)
|Dress: XOXO via TJ Maxx, Cardigan: Kohl's, Scarf: H&M, Belt: Kohl's, Tights: Kohl's, Shoes: Elle via Kohl's, Earrings/Ring: Personal Accents, Ring: Amrita Singh|